Motown Never Sounded so Good
So you say, all your white flags are up and that you've had enough and that you were tired of collecting dust, you say everything always looks the same and you made your brand new face to match your brand new place, you say all your distress calls have gone out and your ship is going down
Well I say it to myself all the time,"Stop living half and a life and stop feeling like I'm half alive."
I can't get enough, I'm not satisfied, I've wasted my time with this daily grind, in single file line, is this real life, I've been telling myself sometimes, what matters is on the inside.
Do you remember when we had all the answers, and can you really remember when we wished for anything better, just to feel like it's been forever, does it feel like a broken record, a head full of yesterdays, you keep wishing your life away, you keep looking over you own shoulder, things'll never look up unless you start to move forward.
-Less Than Jake-
Today it came to me and instead of dying inside, the bulb stayed lit. As I lay thinking of you, my hand began to write. Sometimes the empty can rattles the most, with the weight of the world on my shoulders, that just didn't seem enough. With my thoughts swirling and swerving around me, I just had enough. Tired of being tired, all I need is a little help.
It is not the Lords doing in what happens to me but the pain and evil of the world, that was delivered in sin of myself and exists with and within others. It's a collection over the years and combusted over time. It tares apart those who let it and neutralized by those who don't. God's given a promise to deliver us from it with a knock but am I the only one listening?
I sit and stare, as I only see myself staring back. But I can not break or bend, in anyway just for a solution for temporary practices, or positions. It's attacks aren't like usual, but are more subtle than before. They perch overhead and with God, I will be able to overcome this.
No questions asked and with no doubt!
13No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.
1 Corinthians 10:13
Monday, October 19, 2009
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Ode to You
"God Deciding"
Transgressions are madewhile cowards conveywith a demon's ear, fixed and set to slay.While the statue awaitsto be whittled awaywith a mock of a slogan hiding filth with fear.Never to learn,only to burn...and be burned.Branded straight through slate,clear as common day.What shall be the mark to be made,when we crush it all to burn it down,without sight, without sound?Not anything but a casualty forgotten in the ground.A simple shell, that's solemn still--without sight, without sound.Make a martyr,a pedestal with ribbons of slaughter.Feed the altar,stoke the fire it will take over.Ignore the cut... the skin with callus as well as interest.If all are reckless none is to profit,none is to win it.So who will pay for all the tears,all the lives, from either side?All the years, all the time of living blindplaying "God Deciding?"And who will die next in linefor the lie, justifiedfor the rise of sitting high playing "God Deciding?"And who will walk awayfrom the rage and revenge?Inhumane consequence comes in timeplaying "God Deciding."And who will fall in line to arrive,out of sight and out of mind?
As I wake from a dream, my age is taken away, away again as I stare forward, I'm young again. I'm scared and broken as the weight is removed from my chest, it was held there awhile, and relief just seemed so scares.
-Hot Water Music-
As I hide beneath my blankets, as they become my security, I see your vision as others hear my screams. I begin to proclaim:
"The weight has been lifted, as I'm finally free!"
The hold that would never let go, as the clock ticks down, I notice the time and wonder if you see what I see? The hand of God has finally been revealed to me!
The power of the Lord has set me free!
For the first time I can breathe, without assistance from you, I can see the road as it is paved beneath me.
But as I grab on, and hold on to my security, God tells me, "let go for your finally Free!"
I begin to look around and notice my age, I'm 25 again, but I'm finally free!
He did this so that all the peoples of the earth might know that the hand of the LORD is powerful and so that you might always fear the LORD your God."
Joshua 4:24
Transgressions are madewhile cowards conveywith a demon's ear, fixed and set to slay.While the statue awaitsto be whittled awaywith a mock of a slogan hiding filth with fear.Never to learn,only to burn...and be burned.Branded straight through slate,clear as common day.What shall be the mark to be made,when we crush it all to burn it down,without sight, without sound?Not anything but a casualty forgotten in the ground.A simple shell, that's solemn still--without sight, without sound.Make a martyr,a pedestal with ribbons of slaughter.Feed the altar,stoke the fire it will take over.Ignore the cut... the skin with callus as well as interest.If all are reckless none is to profit,none is to win it.So who will pay for all the tears,all the lives, from either side?All the years, all the time of living blindplaying "God Deciding?"And who will die next in linefor the lie, justifiedfor the rise of sitting high playing "God Deciding?"And who will walk awayfrom the rage and revenge?Inhumane consequence comes in timeplaying "God Deciding."And who will fall in line to arrive,out of sight and out of mind?
As I wake from a dream, my age is taken away, away again as I stare forward, I'm young again. I'm scared and broken as the weight is removed from my chest, it was held there awhile, and relief just seemed so scares.
-Hot Water Music-
As I hide beneath my blankets, as they become my security, I see your vision as others hear my screams. I begin to proclaim:
"The weight has been lifted, as I'm finally free!"
The hold that would never let go, as the clock ticks down, I notice the time and wonder if you see what I see? The hand of God has finally been revealed to me!
The power of the Lord has set me free!
For the first time I can breathe, without assistance from you, I can see the road as it is paved beneath me.
But as I grab on, and hold on to my security, God tells me, "let go for your finally Free!"
I begin to look around and notice my age, I'm 25 again, but I'm finally free!
He did this so that all the peoples of the earth might know that the hand of the LORD is powerful and so that you might always fear the LORD your God."
Joshua 4:24
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Freedom....who knew it could be so easy
Free is a word that most people look for in their certain lifestyle or situations. For me, it's an escape from pain and tragedies that would break and bend others beyound conformity.
It's a phrase that others seek, from families and addictions that were consumed by the consumer, but to only find out that it breaks them beyond hell and into eternity.
Is free really free if you don't surrender?
Freedom is not found in the tresholds of this world, but is that what i really choose or conform to?
To be free is to be sold or ransomed from chains that have held you down, blackened you into night, or have just no escape. Freedom comes in like the gust of wind that you have needed for years, the relief that you cried about that just didn't seem to ever be coming. But is this true for you?
Surrendering can be hard, but to see the light it's a must and to put the pieces back together it's the first and only step that it might take in accomplishing the unaccomplishable. But until these chains are ransomed the light will never be there, but turn around and no matter how far from God I, WE have walked away, he will always be on our heels. No doubt, no questions asked!
Matthew 11:28 (New International Version)
28"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
No Doubt and NEVER any questions asked
It's a phrase that others seek, from families and addictions that were consumed by the consumer, but to only find out that it breaks them beyond hell and into eternity.
Is free really free if you don't surrender?
Freedom is not found in the tresholds of this world, but is that what i really choose or conform to?
To be free is to be sold or ransomed from chains that have held you down, blackened you into night, or have just no escape. Freedom comes in like the gust of wind that you have needed for years, the relief that you cried about that just didn't seem to ever be coming. But is this true for you?
Surrendering can be hard, but to see the light it's a must and to put the pieces back together it's the first and only step that it might take in accomplishing the unaccomplishable. But until these chains are ransomed the light will never be there, but turn around and no matter how far from God I, WE have walked away, he will always be on our heels. No doubt, no questions asked!
Matthew 11:28 (New International Version)
28"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
No Doubt and NEVER any questions asked
Monday, October 12, 2009
As the World keeps turning
It's really late at night right now, and as the clock turns from minute to the next minute, I begin to recollect on the day and what has transpired just in this one day.
As we fight back on temptation and chose the right way, in the fork in the road, it still makes us wonder if we really picked the right way or the way that God wanted us to take.
There are many hours in a day and many minutes within that day too, to be indecissive on which choice to take but with God, anything is possible and the world is yours with him by your side.
Which will we take?
Which choice will you take?
As the day begins to break, will today break or will it be me?
As we go today and the world begins to become hard, will we notice those foot steps next to us or give in before we give them a chance? Will our stubborness fall before God so we can trust in him for the last part or will we stumble and let our pride drive?
These are just some of the things that God can help us through. What will you choose, the foot steps or the World? Pride or humbleness?
"Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." 6So we say with confidence, "The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. For What can man do to me?"-Hebrews 13 5-6
As we fight back on temptation and chose the right way, in the fork in the road, it still makes us wonder if we really picked the right way or the way that God wanted us to take.
There are many hours in a day and many minutes within that day too, to be indecissive on which choice to take but with God, anything is possible and the world is yours with him by your side.
Which will we take?
Which choice will you take?
As the day begins to break, will today break or will it be me?
As we go today and the world begins to become hard, will we notice those foot steps next to us or give in before we give them a chance? Will our stubborness fall before God so we can trust in him for the last part or will we stumble and let our pride drive?
These are just some of the things that God can help us through. What will you choose, the foot steps or the World? Pride or humbleness?
"Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." 6So we say with confidence, "The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. For What can man do to me?"-Hebrews 13 5-6
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
There is no "me" in QUIT!
"It's hard to find your way through the darkness,it's hard to know what to believe.But if you live by your heart and value the love that you find,when you have all you need.To run Don't follow Lead a life the best we know.Let's talk about an independent stand.Let's talk about free form thought.It's not about living under command.So don't get caught.I get knocked down and then I get back up.Live your heart and never follow.I'll speak my mind you can't cover it up.Live your heart and never follow.I'm picking up the pieces as they break and fall.Live your heart and never follow.I'll take on every day standing up, standing tall.Live your heart and never follow."
-Hot Water Music-
Today, I found myself staring into the face of Hell, again. It had been awhile and I really had no idea what to do. My feelings were crushed, it seemed like all of my friends had forgotten about me, and I really felt alone...alone for the first time, in a really long time. I didn't know what to do, but be silent and wish for just one moment or one good memory, that could help me escape for just one minute but they just never came.
"My God, My God, what have I done to deserve this?"
I was broken and hallow, not knowing where to start or how to get the conversation started, so that someone could help me. So I did what I always do, I held it in,went to the gym, and tried to release it there. I tried and tried to shake the feeling of hurt and discouragement, but I feel like God made this decision or let this situation happen, so I could grow and become stronger.
I thought back to Job and I didn't blame God for my tragedies, but it still hurt and I'm still learning from it. I've been here before, is what kept going through my head and that I can triumph over this, just like I did before many times.
I've never been a quitter, especially when it comes to certain things that I love. I remembered how I never gave up on weightlifting, no matter how heavy it may get. Quitting my goals or giving up on hope to a better ending to this tragedy, is not what I was going to do, but I remembered that doing it on my own, wasn't going to be capable without God and his hands in trusting that there would be a hope, a relief, or an escape from my tragedies.
I'm still hurting, healing one day at a time, but if I didn't put it in Gods hands, I would have stayed in Hell with the rest of my horrible memories, regrets, mistakes, and other broken relationships that i ruined when I was not a Christian. With the words above and the words below, I will once again, triumph over tragedy and with it in Gods hands. I will once again persevere. With many trials, true freedom is just not found in the treshholds of this world. But with Christ, everythings possible.
RESTLESS
Restless, I sit here singing in the distance and it's getting to me, so don't bring it up. Waiting for the message to keep moving cause I'm dying here in the lock groove again.
Is this the wrong way to go, looking for a sign to get off this road. Cause someone once told me if there's a road to happiness I must have passed it long ago
And whirlwind, yea I'm back in that fight again. Staying on my knees just because I'm falling...I'm not giving up. You're gonna have to break me, and I know you can.
So I guess you had to show, things that I regret, just to bring the cold. I can't take hint, maybe I belong alone, I don't know where to go.
Whirlwind, yea I'm back in that fight again. I'm staying on my knees just because I'm falling....I'm not giving up. You're gonna have to break me, and I know you care."
-Rumbleseat-
-Hot Water Music-
Today, I found myself staring into the face of Hell, again. It had been awhile and I really had no idea what to do. My feelings were crushed, it seemed like all of my friends had forgotten about me, and I really felt alone...alone for the first time, in a really long time. I didn't know what to do, but be silent and wish for just one moment or one good memory, that could help me escape for just one minute but they just never came.
"My God, My God, what have I done to deserve this?"
I was broken and hallow, not knowing where to start or how to get the conversation started, so that someone could help me. So I did what I always do, I held it in,went to the gym, and tried to release it there. I tried and tried to shake the feeling of hurt and discouragement, but I feel like God made this decision or let this situation happen, so I could grow and become stronger.
I thought back to Job and I didn't blame God for my tragedies, but it still hurt and I'm still learning from it. I've been here before, is what kept going through my head and that I can triumph over this, just like I did before many times.
I've never been a quitter, especially when it comes to certain things that I love. I remembered how I never gave up on weightlifting, no matter how heavy it may get. Quitting my goals or giving up on hope to a better ending to this tragedy, is not what I was going to do, but I remembered that doing it on my own, wasn't going to be capable without God and his hands in trusting that there would be a hope, a relief, or an escape from my tragedies.
I'm still hurting, healing one day at a time, but if I didn't put it in Gods hands, I would have stayed in Hell with the rest of my horrible memories, regrets, mistakes, and other broken relationships that i ruined when I was not a Christian. With the words above and the words below, I will once again, triumph over tragedy and with it in Gods hands. I will once again persevere. With many trials, true freedom is just not found in the treshholds of this world. But with Christ, everythings possible.
RESTLESS
Restless, I sit here singing in the distance and it's getting to me, so don't bring it up. Waiting for the message to keep moving cause I'm dying here in the lock groove again.
Is this the wrong way to go, looking for a sign to get off this road. Cause someone once told me if there's a road to happiness I must have passed it long ago
And whirlwind, yea I'm back in that fight again. Staying on my knees just because I'm falling...I'm not giving up. You're gonna have to break me, and I know you can.
So I guess you had to show, things that I regret, just to bring the cold. I can't take hint, maybe I belong alone, I don't know where to go.
Whirlwind, yea I'm back in that fight again. I'm staying on my knees just because I'm falling....I'm not giving up. You're gonna have to break me, and I know you care."
-Rumbleseat-
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