As today comes swinging to a halt, it's late but not early. As we come to the final decisions, do we stay or shall I run, but if we do either, may we use the same fire escape?
We stand here, fogged with decisions and with every other answer from someone else, we find ourselves more confused than when we started. Dazed and confused about our outcomes, i figured that when were done, we will not divided together.
I remember the great things that are lost and i remembered the lost that were great, but in the grey, we all lost!
As the days approach quicker and our hearts break together, they stop and ask us..."What are you two going to do?"
We question each other time and time again, until the answer bugs us and as time flips away, you still the only one he sees. Finishing up and taking a leap, for the first time, i truly can fly. As the line is drawn and the temptation to jump is finally behind, we look deep in each other but never looking down!
Looking backward instead, and running forward, all i see is you and my dreams are finally coming true. We answer their questions together, finally seeing where we stand, but if divided there would never be an end. But together, may the world not stand in our way...For in God...For in God, we were always there!
Genisis 2:23-24
The man said, "Thisis now bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh; she shall be called Woman, for she was taken out of man." For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be unitied with his wife, and they will become one flesh.
Monday, December 14, 2009
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Departed
Branded together and always there, we will stand in strands but correlate together. When Divided though, we are departed...
Fighting through the struggle of the line, when stuck in the middle, it always feels like the end. Through our eyes we see the front of the line, but with years passing, inch by inch we never moved at all.
Warmth where we stand, like the line between light and dark, and it always gets colder as we moved on. As we cover new territory, and begin trespassing, I try not to trespass against others, but I stumble and fall.
I contimplate what to do next, but it's just to foggy to decide with decisions clouding my thoughts. There is this and there is that. but for what? The coagulation of each!
I fight to finish this fight and feel the heat when I get there. God forgive me for my trespasses, God forgive us for our trespasses, and pick us up as we break and fall. Help us to finish the race, and provide when we feel untouchable!
Fighting through the struggle of the line, when stuck in the middle, it always feels like the end. Through our eyes we see the front of the line, but with years passing, inch by inch we never moved at all.
Warmth where we stand, like the line between light and dark, and it always gets colder as we moved on. As we cover new territory, and begin trespassing, I try not to trespass against others, but I stumble and fall.
I contimplate what to do next, but it's just to foggy to decide with decisions clouding my thoughts. There is this and there is that. but for what? The coagulation of each!
I fight to finish this fight and feel the heat when I get there. God forgive me for my trespasses, God forgive us for our trespasses, and pick us up as we break and fall. Help us to finish the race, and provide when we feel untouchable!
Thursday, November 12, 2009
One Scarred Hand to Another
As I walk through, I see you but I choose the closest hand.
(He is jealous for me,)
Beaten and disappointed I choose to follow,
(Loves like a hurricane: I am a tree, bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy)
And by choice, I find the others, one scarred hand to another.
(When all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions embraced by glory,)
Humbled and unaware, scarred hands from Hell and back, torn between insecurities are blemished but never seeming undone from the eye.
(And I realize just how beautiful you are, and how great your affections are for me)
As we are divided by hands and not seeing your truth, I realize Why Can't Just Follow Directions then....
(And OH, how he loves us so, OH! how he loves us so, Oh! How he loves us all)
As my temperament changes and as the blind lead the blind, moving a million yards down...together we STAND!
(We are his portion and he is our prize drawn to redemption by the grace in his eyes,)
Never dividing and never giving up, we fight for the end and until it comes.
(If grace is an ocean, then we're all sinking.)
Deciding to stop is not in the invitation and to quit is not an option
(And Heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss, and my heart turns violently inside of my chest.)
And with all our regrets and all of our discretion's, we persevere, with God, with each other, one scarred hand to another.
(I don't have time to maintain these regrets, when I think about the way...)
Oh and how HE loves so
Oh! How he loves us so, and
how he loves us all
(He is jealous for me,)
Beaten and disappointed I choose to follow,
(Loves like a hurricane: I am a tree, bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy)
And by choice, I find the others, one scarred hand to another.
(When all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions embraced by glory,)
Humbled and unaware, scarred hands from Hell and back, torn between insecurities are blemished but never seeming undone from the eye.
(And I realize just how beautiful you are, and how great your affections are for me)
As we are divided by hands and not seeing your truth, I realize Why Can't Just Follow Directions then....
(And OH, how he loves us so, OH! how he loves us so, Oh! How he loves us all)
As my temperament changes and as the blind lead the blind, moving a million yards down...together we STAND!
(We are his portion and he is our prize drawn to redemption by the grace in his eyes,)
Never dividing and never giving up, we fight for the end and until it comes.
(If grace is an ocean, then we're all sinking.)
Deciding to stop is not in the invitation and to quit is not an option
(And Heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss, and my heart turns violently inside of my chest.)
And with all our regrets and all of our discretion's, we persevere, with God, with each other, one scarred hand to another.
(I don't have time to maintain these regrets, when I think about the way...)
Oh and how HE loves so
Oh! How he loves us so, and
how he loves us all
Romans 12:1-3
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Today
Today, I spoke and you listened. The night finally became day, and for the first time I could close my eyes. With every faulty decision before, you gave me a breath, a fresh breath, to breathe. Because in a cloudy room, it's all that you can ask for.
Today, I stepped back. It broke when I broke, and smashed when I smashed. Violently turning in my chest, the pain just couldn't stand being content anymore. As tears flowed, I could only think about you.
Today, we died. Slowly and not painfully, we died. Our last breath was together and our friendships, had finally turned their backs. God, I asked, what is truly going on?
Today, I fell sixteen floors and survived. Yesterday I fell and shattered. Today I walked and yesterday I was running. But no matter how hard I run, my pain will always run faster.
Today, I journeyed further, today I stumbled, today I loved, but with love I always find my broken heart again, just not as soon as possible.
I dreamed of you TODAY, and for the first time, you deserved to be with someone else. But I choose my company by the beating of their hearts, not the swelling of their heads.
As I break, I will not bend and I'm not going to break, but I am not worried and I am not overly concerned. Grace, shower down on me as I walk, just as she begins. But I try to tell myself, the things that I try to tell myself, to make myself forget. But I'm stunned and I'm about to break with just one more word.
But TODAY, I will get through, because what's today's difference from yesterday?
I can walk, I can climb, I can sing, and as I do this, I lift my hands and yell....HERE I AM WORLD, STOP ME IF YOU CAN!! With red light, green light being played, I'll get there eventually.
Because I will always be the one who sits back, and just smokes cigarettes, being the one with the loudest mouth and staying the most open minded as I can be!
And with my one breath, With this one last breath I will speak....the name of Jesus!
Today, I stepped back. It broke when I broke, and smashed when I smashed. Violently turning in my chest, the pain just couldn't stand being content anymore. As tears flowed, I could only think about you.
Today, we died. Slowly and not painfully, we died. Our last breath was together and our friendships, had finally turned their backs. God, I asked, what is truly going on?
Today, I fell sixteen floors and survived. Yesterday I fell and shattered. Today I walked and yesterday I was running. But no matter how hard I run, my pain will always run faster.
Today, I journeyed further, today I stumbled, today I loved, but with love I always find my broken heart again, just not as soon as possible.
I dreamed of you TODAY, and for the first time, you deserved to be with someone else. But I choose my company by the beating of their hearts, not the swelling of their heads.
As I break, I will not bend and I'm not going to break, but I am not worried and I am not overly concerned. Grace, shower down on me as I walk, just as she begins. But I try to tell myself, the things that I try to tell myself, to make myself forget. But I'm stunned and I'm about to break with just one more word.
But TODAY, I will get through, because what's today's difference from yesterday?
I can walk, I can climb, I can sing, and as I do this, I lift my hands and yell....HERE I AM WORLD, STOP ME IF YOU CAN!! With red light, green light being played, I'll get there eventually.
Because I will always be the one who sits back, and just smokes cigarettes, being the one with the loudest mouth and staying the most open minded as I can be!
And with my one breath, With this one last breath I will speak....the name of Jesus!
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Ephesians 6 - Passage Lookup - New International Version - BibleGateway.com
Ephesians 6 - Passage Lookup - New International Version - BibleGateway.com: "The Armor of God
10Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. 12For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. 18And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.
19Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, 20for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should."
10Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. 12For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. 18And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.
19Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, 20for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should."
Perservere
As this life moves on, and the world still revolves around the sun scientifically like it always does without a question and answer, will we be able to do the same.
They told me the other day, one foot in front of the other and don't look back or down, because it's a long way for both, down and back. But isn't it human nature to do both?
But instead, did you see next to you, around you, and behind you, that your not alone?
I woke up today not expecting what I was involved in, never expecting the next move, but with grace, do you really need to ask questions.
They told me, roll over, get up, and deal with it...just deal....
But instead, I rolled over like demanded, but with Christ I stood. So I picked up my broken pieces as they break and fall, taking on everyday standing up,standing up tall, for within Christ I can finally begin to see through my eyes!
With my clothes on and ready to head out this door, ready to approach another day with the world, it's corrupted, and it's angers and pains.
They tell me, let it consume you, get right in the middle and stand in it's eye with it's chains, pains and temper. More than one drink for each Consumer.
So I stand on the outside looking in, as they all sway past me. I begin to grab in the middle of the eye and pull out clothes, broken contacts, and misconceptions of what I thought "we" had but was wrong, with every drink that I take.
But instead the voices get louder and louder, the scripture gets more intense around me, behind me and even in front. I look to the mountains, where does my help come from?
We listen to the world and take in all of it's broken promises and believe all of it's lies. But when your in addiction, the only thing that is right or seems right, is that addiction that somehow even though you said never would, but does, eventually takes over your life. People fight and scream but it just doesn't go away, until you take the gloves off and fight it hard and with whatever it takes to get through it. And then you get clean, then what? Most people try to take on those that are still stuck with your same addiction and ask: "Go to church with me or Meet me at church". And just completely for the first time stepping into that eye of the storm to help those people...and most of the time, they end up let down...but recently I've seen people with past addictions, get good responses with asking these same questions, putting themselves out there for the first time taking on Christ, head on. I'm proud to be a part of that and proud to say, those are my friends and I'm proud to say this in Christ with them. This the power I seek and this the power that will get us to the finish line but we don't see that, we see those who need help. we see those who struggle and we see those who need the Love of God and take them head on, like the old Irish wars, where the front line and the rest just bum rushed the other side not caring the response but about the people.
They told me the other day, one foot in front of the other and don't look back or down, because it's a long way for both, down and back. But isn't it human nature to do both?
But instead, did you see next to you, around you, and behind you, that your not alone?
I woke up today not expecting what I was involved in, never expecting the next move, but with grace, do you really need to ask questions.
They told me, roll over, get up, and deal with it...just deal....
But instead, I rolled over like demanded, but with Christ I stood. So I picked up my broken pieces as they break and fall, taking on everyday standing up,standing up tall, for within Christ I can finally begin to see through my eyes!
With my clothes on and ready to head out this door, ready to approach another day with the world, it's corrupted, and it's angers and pains.
They tell me, let it consume you, get right in the middle and stand in it's eye with it's chains, pains and temper. More than one drink for each Consumer.
So I stand on the outside looking in, as they all sway past me. I begin to grab in the middle of the eye and pull out clothes, broken contacts, and misconceptions of what I thought "we" had but was wrong, with every drink that I take.
But instead the voices get louder and louder, the scripture gets more intense around me, behind me and even in front. I look to the mountains, where does my help come from?
We listen to the world and take in all of it's broken promises and believe all of it's lies. But when your in addiction, the only thing that is right or seems right, is that addiction that somehow even though you said never would, but does, eventually takes over your life. People fight and scream but it just doesn't go away, until you take the gloves off and fight it hard and with whatever it takes to get through it. And then you get clean, then what? Most people try to take on those that are still stuck with your same addiction and ask: "Go to church with me or Meet me at church". And just completely for the first time stepping into that eye of the storm to help those people...and most of the time, they end up let down...but recently I've seen people with past addictions, get good responses with asking these same questions, putting themselves out there for the first time taking on Christ, head on. I'm proud to be a part of that and proud to say, those are my friends and I'm proud to say this in Christ with them. This the power I seek and this the power that will get us to the finish line but we don't see that, we see those who need help. we see those who struggle and we see those who need the Love of God and take them head on, like the old Irish wars, where the front line and the rest just bum rushed the other side not caring the response but about the people.
Ephesians 6 It's right below this the verus that I wanted, but my computer is being Kool(as me and Sammy would say to something that is really not cool) and will not let me...so sorry no song lyrics either
Monday, October 19, 2009
Bearing
Motown Never Sounded so Good
So you say, all your white flags are up and that you've had enough and that you were tired of collecting dust, you say everything always looks the same and you made your brand new face to match your brand new place, you say all your distress calls have gone out and your ship is going down
Well I say it to myself all the time,"Stop living half and a life and stop feeling like I'm half alive."
I can't get enough, I'm not satisfied, I've wasted my time with this daily grind, in single file line, is this real life, I've been telling myself sometimes, what matters is on the inside.
Do you remember when we had all the answers, and can you really remember when we wished for anything better, just to feel like it's been forever, does it feel like a broken record, a head full of yesterdays, you keep wishing your life away, you keep looking over you own shoulder, things'll never look up unless you start to move forward.
-Less Than Jake-
Today it came to me and instead of dying inside, the bulb stayed lit. As I lay thinking of you, my hand began to write. Sometimes the empty can rattles the most, with the weight of the world on my shoulders, that just didn't seem enough. With my thoughts swirling and swerving around me, I just had enough. Tired of being tired, all I need is a little help.
It is not the Lords doing in what happens to me but the pain and evil of the world, that was delivered in sin of myself and exists with and within others. It's a collection over the years and combusted over time. It tares apart those who let it and neutralized by those who don't. God's given a promise to deliver us from it with a knock but am I the only one listening?
I sit and stare, as I only see myself staring back. But I can not break or bend, in anyway just for a solution for temporary practices, or positions. It's attacks aren't like usual, but are more subtle than before. They perch overhead and with God, I will be able to overcome this.
No questions asked and with no doubt!
13No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.
1 Corinthians 10:13
So you say, all your white flags are up and that you've had enough and that you were tired of collecting dust, you say everything always looks the same and you made your brand new face to match your brand new place, you say all your distress calls have gone out and your ship is going down
Well I say it to myself all the time,"Stop living half and a life and stop feeling like I'm half alive."
I can't get enough, I'm not satisfied, I've wasted my time with this daily grind, in single file line, is this real life, I've been telling myself sometimes, what matters is on the inside.
Do you remember when we had all the answers, and can you really remember when we wished for anything better, just to feel like it's been forever, does it feel like a broken record, a head full of yesterdays, you keep wishing your life away, you keep looking over you own shoulder, things'll never look up unless you start to move forward.
-Less Than Jake-
Today it came to me and instead of dying inside, the bulb stayed lit. As I lay thinking of you, my hand began to write. Sometimes the empty can rattles the most, with the weight of the world on my shoulders, that just didn't seem enough. With my thoughts swirling and swerving around me, I just had enough. Tired of being tired, all I need is a little help.
It is not the Lords doing in what happens to me but the pain and evil of the world, that was delivered in sin of myself and exists with and within others. It's a collection over the years and combusted over time. It tares apart those who let it and neutralized by those who don't. God's given a promise to deliver us from it with a knock but am I the only one listening?
I sit and stare, as I only see myself staring back. But I can not break or bend, in anyway just for a solution for temporary practices, or positions. It's attacks aren't like usual, but are more subtle than before. They perch overhead and with God, I will be able to overcome this.
No questions asked and with no doubt!
13No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.
1 Corinthians 10:13
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Ode to You
"God Deciding"
Transgressions are madewhile cowards conveywith a demon's ear, fixed and set to slay.While the statue awaitsto be whittled awaywith a mock of a slogan hiding filth with fear.Never to learn,only to burn...and be burned.Branded straight through slate,clear as common day.What shall be the mark to be made,when we crush it all to burn it down,without sight, without sound?Not anything but a casualty forgotten in the ground.A simple shell, that's solemn still--without sight, without sound.Make a martyr,a pedestal with ribbons of slaughter.Feed the altar,stoke the fire it will take over.Ignore the cut... the skin with callus as well as interest.If all are reckless none is to profit,none is to win it.So who will pay for all the tears,all the lives, from either side?All the years, all the time of living blindplaying "God Deciding?"And who will die next in linefor the lie, justifiedfor the rise of sitting high playing "God Deciding?"And who will walk awayfrom the rage and revenge?Inhumane consequence comes in timeplaying "God Deciding."And who will fall in line to arrive,out of sight and out of mind?
As I wake from a dream, my age is taken away, away again as I stare forward, I'm young again. I'm scared and broken as the weight is removed from my chest, it was held there awhile, and relief just seemed so scares.
-Hot Water Music-
As I hide beneath my blankets, as they become my security, I see your vision as others hear my screams. I begin to proclaim:
"The weight has been lifted, as I'm finally free!"
The hold that would never let go, as the clock ticks down, I notice the time and wonder if you see what I see? The hand of God has finally been revealed to me!
The power of the Lord has set me free!
For the first time I can breathe, without assistance from you, I can see the road as it is paved beneath me.
But as I grab on, and hold on to my security, God tells me, "let go for your finally Free!"
I begin to look around and notice my age, I'm 25 again, but I'm finally free!
He did this so that all the peoples of the earth might know that the hand of the LORD is powerful and so that you might always fear the LORD your God."
Joshua 4:24
Transgressions are madewhile cowards conveywith a demon's ear, fixed and set to slay.While the statue awaitsto be whittled awaywith a mock of a slogan hiding filth with fear.Never to learn,only to burn...and be burned.Branded straight through slate,clear as common day.What shall be the mark to be made,when we crush it all to burn it down,without sight, without sound?Not anything but a casualty forgotten in the ground.A simple shell, that's solemn still--without sight, without sound.Make a martyr,a pedestal with ribbons of slaughter.Feed the altar,stoke the fire it will take over.Ignore the cut... the skin with callus as well as interest.If all are reckless none is to profit,none is to win it.So who will pay for all the tears,all the lives, from either side?All the years, all the time of living blindplaying "God Deciding?"And who will die next in linefor the lie, justifiedfor the rise of sitting high playing "God Deciding?"And who will walk awayfrom the rage and revenge?Inhumane consequence comes in timeplaying "God Deciding."And who will fall in line to arrive,out of sight and out of mind?
As I wake from a dream, my age is taken away, away again as I stare forward, I'm young again. I'm scared and broken as the weight is removed from my chest, it was held there awhile, and relief just seemed so scares.
-Hot Water Music-
As I hide beneath my blankets, as they become my security, I see your vision as others hear my screams. I begin to proclaim:
"The weight has been lifted, as I'm finally free!"
The hold that would never let go, as the clock ticks down, I notice the time and wonder if you see what I see? The hand of God has finally been revealed to me!
The power of the Lord has set me free!
For the first time I can breathe, without assistance from you, I can see the road as it is paved beneath me.
But as I grab on, and hold on to my security, God tells me, "let go for your finally Free!"
I begin to look around and notice my age, I'm 25 again, but I'm finally free!
He did this so that all the peoples of the earth might know that the hand of the LORD is powerful and so that you might always fear the LORD your God."
Joshua 4:24
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Freedom....who knew it could be so easy
Free is a word that most people look for in their certain lifestyle or situations. For me, it's an escape from pain and tragedies that would break and bend others beyound conformity.
It's a phrase that others seek, from families and addictions that were consumed by the consumer, but to only find out that it breaks them beyond hell and into eternity.
Is free really free if you don't surrender?
Freedom is not found in the tresholds of this world, but is that what i really choose or conform to?
To be free is to be sold or ransomed from chains that have held you down, blackened you into night, or have just no escape. Freedom comes in like the gust of wind that you have needed for years, the relief that you cried about that just didn't seem to ever be coming. But is this true for you?
Surrendering can be hard, but to see the light it's a must and to put the pieces back together it's the first and only step that it might take in accomplishing the unaccomplishable. But until these chains are ransomed the light will never be there, but turn around and no matter how far from God I, WE have walked away, he will always be on our heels. No doubt, no questions asked!
Matthew 11:28 (New International Version)
28"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
No Doubt and NEVER any questions asked
It's a phrase that others seek, from families and addictions that were consumed by the consumer, but to only find out that it breaks them beyond hell and into eternity.
Is free really free if you don't surrender?
Freedom is not found in the tresholds of this world, but is that what i really choose or conform to?
To be free is to be sold or ransomed from chains that have held you down, blackened you into night, or have just no escape. Freedom comes in like the gust of wind that you have needed for years, the relief that you cried about that just didn't seem to ever be coming. But is this true for you?
Surrendering can be hard, but to see the light it's a must and to put the pieces back together it's the first and only step that it might take in accomplishing the unaccomplishable. But until these chains are ransomed the light will never be there, but turn around and no matter how far from God I, WE have walked away, he will always be on our heels. No doubt, no questions asked!
Matthew 11:28 (New International Version)
28"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
No Doubt and NEVER any questions asked
Monday, October 12, 2009
As the World keeps turning
It's really late at night right now, and as the clock turns from minute to the next minute, I begin to recollect on the day and what has transpired just in this one day.
As we fight back on temptation and chose the right way, in the fork in the road, it still makes us wonder if we really picked the right way or the way that God wanted us to take.
There are many hours in a day and many minutes within that day too, to be indecissive on which choice to take but with God, anything is possible and the world is yours with him by your side.
Which will we take?
Which choice will you take?
As the day begins to break, will today break or will it be me?
As we go today and the world begins to become hard, will we notice those foot steps next to us or give in before we give them a chance? Will our stubborness fall before God so we can trust in him for the last part or will we stumble and let our pride drive?
These are just some of the things that God can help us through. What will you choose, the foot steps or the World? Pride or humbleness?
"Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." 6So we say with confidence, "The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. For What can man do to me?"-Hebrews 13 5-6
As we fight back on temptation and chose the right way, in the fork in the road, it still makes us wonder if we really picked the right way or the way that God wanted us to take.
There are many hours in a day and many minutes within that day too, to be indecissive on which choice to take but with God, anything is possible and the world is yours with him by your side.
Which will we take?
Which choice will you take?
As the day begins to break, will today break or will it be me?
As we go today and the world begins to become hard, will we notice those foot steps next to us or give in before we give them a chance? Will our stubborness fall before God so we can trust in him for the last part or will we stumble and let our pride drive?
These are just some of the things that God can help us through. What will you choose, the foot steps or the World? Pride or humbleness?
"Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." 6So we say with confidence, "The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. For What can man do to me?"-Hebrews 13 5-6
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
There is no "me" in QUIT!
"It's hard to find your way through the darkness,it's hard to know what to believe.But if you live by your heart and value the love that you find,when you have all you need.To run Don't follow Lead a life the best we know.Let's talk about an independent stand.Let's talk about free form thought.It's not about living under command.So don't get caught.I get knocked down and then I get back up.Live your heart and never follow.I'll speak my mind you can't cover it up.Live your heart and never follow.I'm picking up the pieces as they break and fall.Live your heart and never follow.I'll take on every day standing up, standing tall.Live your heart and never follow."
-Hot Water Music-
Today, I found myself staring into the face of Hell, again. It had been awhile and I really had no idea what to do. My feelings were crushed, it seemed like all of my friends had forgotten about me, and I really felt alone...alone for the first time, in a really long time. I didn't know what to do, but be silent and wish for just one moment or one good memory, that could help me escape for just one minute but they just never came.
"My God, My God, what have I done to deserve this?"
I was broken and hallow, not knowing where to start or how to get the conversation started, so that someone could help me. So I did what I always do, I held it in,went to the gym, and tried to release it there. I tried and tried to shake the feeling of hurt and discouragement, but I feel like God made this decision or let this situation happen, so I could grow and become stronger.
I thought back to Job and I didn't blame God for my tragedies, but it still hurt and I'm still learning from it. I've been here before, is what kept going through my head and that I can triumph over this, just like I did before many times.
I've never been a quitter, especially when it comes to certain things that I love. I remembered how I never gave up on weightlifting, no matter how heavy it may get. Quitting my goals or giving up on hope to a better ending to this tragedy, is not what I was going to do, but I remembered that doing it on my own, wasn't going to be capable without God and his hands in trusting that there would be a hope, a relief, or an escape from my tragedies.
I'm still hurting, healing one day at a time, but if I didn't put it in Gods hands, I would have stayed in Hell with the rest of my horrible memories, regrets, mistakes, and other broken relationships that i ruined when I was not a Christian. With the words above and the words below, I will once again, triumph over tragedy and with it in Gods hands. I will once again persevere. With many trials, true freedom is just not found in the treshholds of this world. But with Christ, everythings possible.
RESTLESS
Restless, I sit here singing in the distance and it's getting to me, so don't bring it up. Waiting for the message to keep moving cause I'm dying here in the lock groove again.
Is this the wrong way to go, looking for a sign to get off this road. Cause someone once told me if there's a road to happiness I must have passed it long ago
And whirlwind, yea I'm back in that fight again. Staying on my knees just because I'm falling...I'm not giving up. You're gonna have to break me, and I know you can.
So I guess you had to show, things that I regret, just to bring the cold. I can't take hint, maybe I belong alone, I don't know where to go.
Whirlwind, yea I'm back in that fight again. I'm staying on my knees just because I'm falling....I'm not giving up. You're gonna have to break me, and I know you care."
-Rumbleseat-
-Hot Water Music-
Today, I found myself staring into the face of Hell, again. It had been awhile and I really had no idea what to do. My feelings were crushed, it seemed like all of my friends had forgotten about me, and I really felt alone...alone for the first time, in a really long time. I didn't know what to do, but be silent and wish for just one moment or one good memory, that could help me escape for just one minute but they just never came.
"My God, My God, what have I done to deserve this?"
I was broken and hallow, not knowing where to start or how to get the conversation started, so that someone could help me. So I did what I always do, I held it in,went to the gym, and tried to release it there. I tried and tried to shake the feeling of hurt and discouragement, but I feel like God made this decision or let this situation happen, so I could grow and become stronger.
I thought back to Job and I didn't blame God for my tragedies, but it still hurt and I'm still learning from it. I've been here before, is what kept going through my head and that I can triumph over this, just like I did before many times.
I've never been a quitter, especially when it comes to certain things that I love. I remembered how I never gave up on weightlifting, no matter how heavy it may get. Quitting my goals or giving up on hope to a better ending to this tragedy, is not what I was going to do, but I remembered that doing it on my own, wasn't going to be capable without God and his hands in trusting that there would be a hope, a relief, or an escape from my tragedies.
I'm still hurting, healing one day at a time, but if I didn't put it in Gods hands, I would have stayed in Hell with the rest of my horrible memories, regrets, mistakes, and other broken relationships that i ruined when I was not a Christian. With the words above and the words below, I will once again, triumph over tragedy and with it in Gods hands. I will once again persevere. With many trials, true freedom is just not found in the treshholds of this world. But with Christ, everythings possible.
RESTLESS
Restless, I sit here singing in the distance and it's getting to me, so don't bring it up. Waiting for the message to keep moving cause I'm dying here in the lock groove again.
Is this the wrong way to go, looking for a sign to get off this road. Cause someone once told me if there's a road to happiness I must have passed it long ago
And whirlwind, yea I'm back in that fight again. Staying on my knees just because I'm falling...I'm not giving up. You're gonna have to break me, and I know you can.
So I guess you had to show, things that I regret, just to bring the cold. I can't take hint, maybe I belong alone, I don't know where to go.
Whirlwind, yea I'm back in that fight again. I'm staying on my knees just because I'm falling....I'm not giving up. You're gonna have to break me, and I know you care."
-Rumbleseat-
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